Announce to the world we're looking to adopt again: check. (yay! that was exciting! Thank you for helping us get the word out!)
Complete adoption application: check. (got that part finished! yay!)
Now....what to do next?
Homestudy paperwork and interviews should start up soon. But mostly? I'm
called to WAIT.
And be still.
And wait some more, hoping and praying that something is happening behind the scenes.
This is not easy for a "doer" like me. I can't stand the waiting without doing, so I naturally find myself glued to the laptop researching baby names online into the night just to give me the false sense that I'm "doing" something.
Suddenly I'm remembering this emotional rollercoaster called Adoption. But unlike the
rollercoaster of Infertility, the ride of Adoption is way more exciting (to us, at least) once it gets going.
So we've strapped on our seat belts and we're ready to go! Let's go!
But things are quiet.
And unsure. And the ride hasn't begun.
Um, hello? Is anybody working this thing? We're ready! When is this thing gonna start?
But all is quiet, and continues to be this way. And when there is nothing pressing for me to do, I am tempted to think nothing is happening. That maybe there will be no ride afterall. That maybe we'll never welcome another into our family. That maybe God is not at work.
Stop despairing, my heart!
For I know He is ALWAYS at work, even when all is silent. And so I'll continue to walk by faith and not by sight...