But I refuse to forget the joys.
I have a little girl who lights up my life.
And calls ME, of all people, her "Mommy."
She is my Father's goodness literally handed to me.
I must never forget His heart. Even when His hand withholds.
May this present pain not stop me from doing that which He has already called me to do.
Or love those whom He has called me to love.
In the hopes for another to enter our home.
May I look into her eyes and remember His loving care for me.
May I rejoice knowing that they, the other couple,
will soon know what it is to be parents.
For the first time.
They will see His love most powerfully on display
as they've never seen before.
It will not be without great pain.
For them, in the waiting.
For the birthmom, in the relinquishment.
For us, in the letting go.
But joy will dawn again.
Adoption brings beauty out of pain.
Joy out of sorrow.
Today we squeezed a little tighter.
Today we cherished what is right in front of us.
And we think this little gal's a keeper. ;)
"Weeping may last through the night, but joy comes with the morning..." Psalm 30:5
Beautifully written, Amy. I love what you said: "Adoption brings beauty out of pain. Joy out of sorrow." We have certainly experienced this. Isn't it amazing that as adoptive parents we have a picture of the gospel in front of us every day?? We are truly blessed. Thank you for reminding me of that!
ReplyDeletePraise the Lord for spiritual disciplines. I reached for my notebook in which I am recording my own 1000 gifts based on the book by the same name. God has been pulling me out of my own sadness in seeing my beloved daughter so bitterly disappointed. So glad God is working in you in the same way.
ReplyDeleteI'm so thankful to Our Father that I have a wonderful daughter-in-law,son and a beautiful grand-daughter that reminds us of who God is and what He is doing in our lives each day. We love you and we are praying for you. In His Time He will give us the desires of our hearts. Wait on Him and Be still and know that He is God.
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