I don't feel like I (Amy) have the emotional energy to write much, except to ask you guys to pray for us. Tomorrow the three of us were supposed to get on a plane to head to Texas. (Marc has RUF staff training in Dallas all week, so Caroline & I were going to stay the week with my parents & get to have an early Christmas with my family, not to mention see some old friends and birthmommy Megan!! again.) But we won't be boarding that plane. And I'm really, really bummed.
For the past 2 months I've been experiencing positional vertigo (BPPV to be exact, if any of you are aware of it). It came on suddenly. A few severe episodes have left me nauseous and vomiting, but most often I experience a constant "swimming" feeling in my head & just feel off-balance. The dizziness can turn severe if I flip over in bed or reach down to pick an object off the floor.
Long story short- when you've got this type of vertigo, physical therapy is supposed to be highly successful. So I have started going to a therapist for the past couple of weeks. I've had my good days & I've had my bad ones. Last night was really rough, and it made me realize that I'm not in a state to be able to fly to Texas. :( So I'll be staying back here & doing some more physical therapy to try to get this under control. Thankfully Marc has gotten permission to skip his training to be of help to me this week. I think the toughest part of all of this is the feelings of utter discouragement & wondering if I'll ever feel "normal" again. I believe that I will in the long-term, but in the meantime, it's a struggle. I'm so discouraged.
Caroline, who is STILL losing hair!, has been fighting a nasty cold that has her throat & chest all filled up with "gunk" & leaving her cranky, fussy, & can only be consoled with Elmo. :) If she continues to get any worse, I'll probably be taking her to the doc this week as well.
Sweet Marc is holding our little family together right now, but he, too, is starting to feel some cold symptoms as well.
Isn't it just SO true that when it rains, it pours?!? Reality ain't always glorious, is it? :)
So if you think about it, pray that the Lord would be gracious to heal each of us (and all of our many various ailments!) quickly. Pray that He'd give us grace to deal through this & strength to get through it all.
Thanks & much love,
Amy
Ames - lifting you up in prayer. You are loved - sending you our love and best wishes across the miles, and praying that God shows you HIS good and perfect will in all of this.
ReplyDeleteAmy,
ReplyDeleteYour grandparents both understand your disappointments. I suffered with Meniere's syndrome for nine and a half years until I had surgery which was horrible. Your grandfather had positional vertigo
numerous times. With treatments it can be controlled. We will hold you up in prayer.
Grandma Barnett
Amy,
ReplyDeletePraying for Gods's healing and for you as you wait for that healing. Praying for Caroline as well that she will soon be her cheery self. Looking forward to seeing you over Christmas.
Susan
I can't even imagine the disappointment. Praying for you all. Hang in there. I love you all.
ReplyDeleteOh, dear sweet Amy. So sorry....that's just awful. Praying that God will heal you all and comfort your hearts as well. Wish I could hug you in person.
ReplyDeleteI imagine it is HIGHL disappointing that the one thing that YOU think would be so refueling (visiting family and friends) is something you can't physically muster up the ability to do right now. Not to mention, feeling guilty in holding back Marc from his conference thing (really is allowing him to care for and pray for you-exemplifying his vows he took with you years ago). Your family I'm sure, though disapointed, would rather you get well rather than push your body more and feel even worse after getting there or after getting back. Keep in mind that God uses all things for HIS glory and perhaps HE knows that staying at home as a family working through this difficult time together is HIS kindness as yet another means to bring your family even closer together. I will pray for you and know that I am here to help you in any means that I can. I have a mop-and I'm not afraid to use it. :)
ReplyDeleteLove,
Ashley
Hey Amy
ReplyDeleteI am sorry to hear about your struggles right now. I don't know if you remember but when I was in Lubbock, I had the inner ear/dizziness/swimming thing too. And the doc told me to avoid caffeine, suger and salt. It seems like it helps but of course that takes out ALL the fun. Love you and I pray that you can rest in Him who is worthy to be trusted.
Amy, I'm so sorry to hear this. What a huge disappointment. I hope you're able to rest well this week. Please know that you are in my prayers.
ReplyDeletepraying for you! Sounds extremely not fun. :(
ReplyDeleteWe are so sorry that you can't go to Texas this week. I know you all were looking forward to going. I also know your family was excited about having you at their home. Our thoughts and prayers are there with you. If you need us, just holler. We love you and pray that you (Amy) will feel better soon. Hope you, Caroline, will get well soon, and daddy you hang in there for your girls. We love you and pray every day and night for you.
ReplyDeleteGod bless,
Love you all,
Nanny & Papa
Just wanted to let you know you all are in my prayers!-Lisa
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