I don't feel like I (Amy) have the emotional energy to write much, except to ask you guys to pray for us. Tomorrow the three of us were supposed to get on a plane to head to Texas. (Marc has RUF staff training in Dallas all week, so Caroline & I were going to stay the week with my parents & get to have an early Christmas with my family, not to mention see some old friends and birthmommy Megan!! again.) But we won't be boarding that plane. And I'm really, really bummed.
For the past 2 months I've been experiencing positional vertigo (BPPV to be exact, if any of you are aware of it). It came on suddenly. A few severe episodes have left me nauseous and vomiting, but most often I experience a constant "swimming" feeling in my head & just feel off-balance. The dizziness can turn severe if I flip over in bed or reach down to pick an object off the floor.
Long story short- when you've got this type of vertigo, physical therapy is supposed to be highly successful. So I have started going to a therapist for the past couple of weeks. I've had my good days & I've had my bad ones. Last night was really rough, and it made me realize that I'm not in a state to be able to fly to Texas. :( So I'll be staying back here & doing some more physical therapy to try to get this under control. Thankfully Marc has gotten permission to skip his training to be of help to me this week. I think the toughest part of all of this is the feelings of utter discouragement & wondering if I'll ever feel "normal" again. I believe that I will in the long-term, but in the meantime, it's a struggle. I'm so discouraged.
Caroline, who is STILL losing hair!, has been fighting a nasty cold that has her throat & chest all filled up with "gunk" & leaving her cranky, fussy, & can only be consoled with Elmo. :) If she continues to get any worse, I'll probably be taking her to the doc this week as well.
Sweet Marc is holding our little family together right now, but he, too, is starting to feel some cold symptoms as well.
Isn't it just SO true that when it rains, it pours?!? Reality ain't always glorious, is it? :)
So if you think about it, pray that the Lord would be gracious to heal each of us (and all of our many various ailments!) quickly. Pray that He'd give us grace to deal through this & strength to get through it all.
Thanks & much love,